I have tried to express myself in so many
different ways but regardless of my
methods or mediums I always encounter
major resistence. Indifference, anger,
contempt, arrogance, guilt, presentation,
dislike, fear, selfconsciousness, over
confidence, lack of confidence. These
are just a few of the great walls of resistence I encounter trying to express
myself to others.
I know that they are the same problems
most people have expressing themselves
but sometimes when all these things
strike at once the effect can be numbing.
I get this way often when I try to write
a piece about current issues that so
desparately need expression, but I
can not seem to create the objectivity
needed to adequately interpret to an
audiance many of these issues.
I can't possibly not feel outrage when
I think or analyse the Bush Administration policies. I can't objectively view the madness behind the
rational for anything this administration
is doing. So I create an attempt at
objectivity which I later find is impossible for me to do and either forget
the entire issue or concept and leave the
keyboard, or camera or microphone and
move on to another thought, that appears
for the moment, more comprehensable
and can be looked at more objectively.
I often brood over certain issues
like the John Bolton nomination for
the U.N or Negroponte's appointment
for the chief of all U.S. Intelligence agencies. Or the massive failure in Iraq
and the insanity of the Far Christian Right, or how Tom Delay is still allowed
to be Majority leader of the House of
Representatives or why George W. is
even the president when he won the
election through total fraud. You see
I can't remain objective especially if more information comes to me to validate my suspicions. I can not
rest until I have expressed my anger
or my biased perspective of the issue to someone, either here on this website or
on camera or shout it out on radio.
So if I seem rattled or slightly overly opinionated on some subject or other
and you are wondering
what I'm getting at. What is the point of
my article? Then I apologize because I have failed once again at accurately
and objectively expressing myself on
these issues.